This is NOT a character defect any more than craving sweets is a character defect for a diabetic. It is a classic SYMPTOM of substance use disorder symptom. Blaming yourself for this struggle is self defeatin. I hope you can find yourself worthy of being loved as a person with a difficult illness.

Gay father; Psychiatrist; Award-winning author FINALLY OUT. Chapter excerpt here: http://bit.ly/2EyhXTY Top writer on Medium. Not medical advice.

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